I Want To Kill Myself!

Have you ever thought or said: I want to kill myself? Have you ever felt like killing yourself?

If you have, I can assure you that you are not alone in feeling this way at times. I personally have been battling these feelings for decades.

Some years back, at a particular black period in my life, I had the knife in my hands and came close. But somehow, the realization came into my head that I should drop everything and run out of the house. I did that and went to a park and cleared my head of whatever demons had entered


As I look back, I’m thankful that, somehow, I did not go through with my intentions. Oh, I’ve had even darker periods in my life since that occasion but the feelings of suicide never came back as strong, they were brief and passing. Again, I’m thankful for that!

The reason I’m writing this, is that just today I came across a news story of a young beautiful girl that committed suicide just about a year ago. Her mother described her as full of laughter and optimism and had everything going for her. It seems that there was no reason for this girl to end her life and yet she did.

I wish I could interview her. I would like to know why she ended her life with all the bright prospects she had. She seemed to be happy at home. She had lots of friends. She was achieving so many things in school with her talents. Her father was famous. They had plenty. There seemed to be no sign of disturbance. Even the note she left reflected love and optimism. What went wrong?

Why do you have those feelings? What is

disturbing you, if you are able to put your finger on it?

When I had that episode, I was just depressed over a sad turn of events in my life. Is that the case with you?

Do you need a friend? Do you need some hope to cling to? Do you wish you could talk to someone and tell them those feelings?

You can be like me! You can survive the darkness and live to tell about it.

Reach out to someone. Reach out to God. Reach out to a help center. Reach out, someone cares and is willing to help. Reach out to your better side deep within you.

I think that the reason I haven’t repeated that episode is because my faith in God is so much stronger. My faith in the future is so much stronger. I have found so many enjoyable things I can do, even by myself, like writing. I have taken care of my health by a better diet and that has put the right vitamins and minerals into my brain that were solely lacking.

There is a light, but we have to open it!

Do I want to kill myself? No, no, no! No, I want to believe! No, I want to achieve! No, I want to give! No, I want to live!


Rest in peace Daron Richardson!



Article Written By 1hopefulman

I am a researcher, a writer, a poet and most important a truth-seeker in all subjects and matters under the sun. My favorite, all-time book is the Holy Bible.This is what I like to write about. Please visit often and see what I have discovered.

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